Solo 1 | Alena Zveroboy

I’ve been running, jumping, sweating my whole life. Sports is everything to me. My parents are strict, always pushing me to train harder, study better. “Focus,” they say. “No distractions.” My coach is the same, always yelling about medals, about being the best. I’m good, really good, but it’s exhausting. No time for friends, no time for boys. I’ve never had a boyfriend. Never even held hands with a guy. My life’s been all about discipline, routine, and pushing my body to the limit. At night, when the house is quiet, I’m not the perfect athlete. I’m just me. I lock my door, pull out my phone, and watch porn. It’s my secret . The way the people move, the sounds they make, it lights something up inside me. I touch myself, slow at first, then faster, chasing that feeling. It’s my escape, my little rebellion. But that’s as far as it goes. I’m still a virgin. No one’s ever seen me naked. Not my parents, not my coach, not even my friends. My body’s mine, hidden under baggy sports clothes. I turned 18 today. It feels different, like I’m finally free to make my own choices. I’ve been thinking about this for months, maybe longer. I want to be seen, really seen, for the first time. Not as the athlete, not as the good girl, but as me. So, I’m here, standing outside this casting studio. My heart’s pounding, like before a big competition. I’m nervous, but I’m ready. I walk inside. The room’s bright, with a big camera and a woman behind it. She’s calm, professional, asks me to sit. I tell her about my life, sports, strict parents, no boyfriends. I tell her I’m a virgin, that no one’s ever seen me like this. My voice shakes a little, but I keep going. She asks about the porn, about what I do at night. I blush, but I’m honest. It feels good to say it out loud. Then she asks me to stand, to take off my clothes. I hesitate, but only for a second. I pull off my hoodie, my shirt, my pants. I’m standing there in my underwear, feeling the air on my skin. No one’s ever looked at me like this. I unhook my bra, let it fall. Then my panties. I’m naked, completely, for the first time on camera. My body, the one I’ve trained so hard, is bare. I feel powerful, alive, like I’m finally showing the world who I am.